My child

She is 92....but she's still young...her eyes,ears,legs & arms are not giving their best but she always gives her BEST.

Whenever i go to her place i see her sitting before the idiot box which is screaming at top of it's voice with a volume of about 59...i immediately grab the remote and mute it...and shout at my grandma"it's a theatre or a house...what's this volume...it's driving me crazy"
My grandma wears this usual expression of "what-can-i-do-it's-my-old-age"which makes me hit myself for my behaviour...

slowly i get used to the roof-cracking volume

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whenever i bring my friend to introduce her...just after the introduction...she starts shooting about a hundred questions at my friend.....before you start answering the first one,you'll find another one making it's way through the traffic(of questions)

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The great poet William Shakespeare said that old age is second childhood in his work"the seven ages"

It's so true...my grandma is just like a baby.....curious..needs support...asks many questions...has an answer for anything.

At a certain stage i feel like bursting..in her presence..in the presence of her questions and the in the presence of her TV volume...

But she's my child...my 92 year old child!!!

i love her!!!

cry

Crying is one of the best expressions.
crying doesn't make you weak instead it makes you strong.

Cry your heart out for the person you love the most
Cry your heart out in success
Cry your heart out in failure
Cry your heart out during the golden moments
Cry your heart out in pain and grief
Cry your heart out when you lose someone
Cry your heart out when you are scared
Cry your heart out when you are depressed
Cry your heart out when you are angry
Cry your heart out for your family,your society,your country....for yourself & your sake

CRY YOUR HEART OUT WHEN YOU FEEL !!!!

the darkest side....

This story is a true story of a young girl of 18 yrs.

“I was 12 yrs old when I got married to my husband who was 16 that time”
I couldn’t believe my ears when she was telling me this….in this 21st century people are still living like this…my heart started aching while listening to her story.

This young woman works as a maid in my grandma’s house…she’s very clever and tactic...though an illiterate. she’s from mehboobnagar district of Andhra Pradesh

She continued…
“After I got married I came to this area…my husband is good to me unlike the others…..but he’s very fickle-minded …he keeps jumping from one job to the other...at first he was a mason...then a carpenter…then a butcher…then a factory worker…presently he’s working in a bakery….due to his instability…we are unable to feed ourselves and our children properly”.
For this I felt anger rising in me …I couldn’t stop myself from asking “why didn’t your parents see his background?”
With a high pitched laugh (that said I was speaking like a fool) she replied “who cares about his background…they just wanted to get rid of me…a girl is always a burden for her parents”

“Then?” I questioned…

“then…I became pregnant at the age of mmm…13 and 16”and for this my reaction was involuntary and unconscious”whaaa…pregnant?”(With an expression of disgust on my face)and she coolly replied”yaa..And again I am pregnant…I hope this time it’s a boy…the first two are girls…and my husband was not happy with me…ha “ayi maji”…chalo main chalti hoon…phir se ma dantegi”(my grandama shouted at her for not completing her work) …she slowly got up leaving me in a lot of confusion and disgust.

I immediately looked at my mother for some sort of explanation that could comfort me…but she just gave me weak smile...and that smile made me understand this bizarre world.

And that moment I sensed mixed feelings…happy that I wasn’t the victim of this horrible life…sad for this clever&beautiful lady whose talent is just …just wasted.

As I think more of it…I realize more pain….she was pregnant when she could hardly take care of herself…she’s the mother of two and is nourishing them without any knowledge of motherhood….she doesn’t know or even think or plan about the horrible future she’s going to face…..

With a deep sigh of anguish I slip into an uncomfortable sleep thinking about my country which is still in the clutches of child marriage…female infanticide…gender inequality…illiteracy…population explosion…And the mother of all these ....

IGNORANCE

TEARS OF LOVE

shivering
"I agree to lead this wonderful journey of my life with you.....neither before you nor after you...with you.The life ahead waiting for us filled with happiness and difficulties...i promise that I'll share your happiness,sorrow,success and difficulties. I'll make the best "better-half"ever.

We'll be the queen and king of our sweet little kingdom with our princess and prince...May we emerge successful in this most important journey of our life.

With you on my side.....i forget everything...
you are my strength and you are my weakness...
With you on my side i can combat the obstacles in life that i can ever think of...
With you on my side i can achieve the things that i haven't achieved even in my dizziest dreams...
you being with me is what i always wanted..and...needed.

I LOVE YOU!!!